Full Disclosure

have you ever thought
that everyone has one thing
inside
that defines their purpose
for living
and once they say it
or write it
or do it
or whatever
that they are tied down
to the spot
where it happens
and are forced to relive it
for the rest of their lives
in conversation or repetition
to satisfy the people
that need it

sometimes i think
i could find
what my something is
if i just wrote and wrote
and did and did
but
sometimes
i think
i don't want to be tied

so sometimes
i don't say everything
when it's my turn
and other times
i don't write anything
when i feel the pull
and i clutch my something
close to my chest
and stay small